這個關於 Yogi Bhajan 的故事，是幾年前由 Hari Jiwan Singh Khalsa 分享給 HGRD（Hacienda de Guru Ram Das）同修的。
「可以請你不要擋著自己的路嗎？」
1991年4月，在一個相當清爽的清晨，我們在牧場周圍散步。 一邊走路一邊看著牧場的設施，這是我們敬愛的老師平常的習慣和樂趣。 我自己總感覺，好像我和國王一起走，然後他正在巡查他的城堡一樣。 那種感覺就像是... 去感受到他感受的東西，我喜歡生活在他的世界裡。 聽到他親口說的實在話，我就能清楚地知道他的意思。 他的陳述，不需要另外去做解釋。 但是，當他說的話，會迴盪在我內在，對我產生巨大的影響。 我當時參與了一個需要敏感談判的商業交易，他很少過問我的業務，他直接交給我自己去做。 但他經常在人力資源方面提供幫助，剩下的則都由我來決定。
這筆交易的談判進展得異常艱難，我們離雙方都能接受的協議還差得很遠。當時我並沒有意識到，我其實很想報復這個跟我談判的人。他背叛了我那麼深，以至於在我們的談判中，我根本無法給他應得的。我想把他給我造成的損失全部收回來。但這根本不是談判之道。我的想法是，無論他得到什麼，他都不配。報復的念頭阻礙了交易的達成。我想要報復，但這絕對不是成功談判的最終方式。
當時如此顯而易見，我卻視而不見。我陷入了困境。而且，像往常一樣，我沒有和 Siri Singh Sahib 討論過這件事。我以為事情會自行解決，但並沒有。現在，他用他「早晨散步時的智慧箴言」告訴我，他早就看透我了。他怎麼知道的？他又怎麼知道該說什麼？嗯，這就是他為何是 Siri Singh Sahib 的原因。他以榮耀之名履行了他的職責。正因如此，他才得以知曉他需要知道的一切。
在其它人看來，他的話似乎另有所指，表面上跟我無關。他一貫如此，總能找到時機說出自己想說的話。我已經習以為常了。我也總是這樣被訓練著，如果第一個解釋不通，我就會找其他線索和資料。但這次，實在是顯而易見。
我不需要長時間來回做出反應，我馬上就知道他是想讓我放棄復仇。 看看如何在中性的狀態達成交易。 當然，他又是對的。 我們是多麼幸運，有一位真正的老師，他不斷說真話。 我對此無限感激。 我們的工作總是不斷得到祝福，讓我可以聆聽到，然後理解事物！
我並不是說擺脫自我設限很容易，至少對我來說並非如此。尤其是在牽涉到情緒和感受的時候。這並不容易，但為了做到最好，如果你以做到最好為目標，這是必要的。他教導我，如果我想做到最好，我必須擺脫自我設限。我必須允許更偉大的事物來震撼我。這是一種冒犯、一種挑戰，一種直擊你的內心深處－你的安全感！我很幸運能夠理解其中的緣由。
憤怒、嫉妒、恐懼、沮喪和仇恨都是不安全感，必須拋諸腦後。然後是你對信仰、現實和幸福的概念……它們也必須暫時擱置。因為你所信仰的一切，你已無法掌控，你是否會重新拾起部分舊習？最終取決於神的判斷。否則，它們會阻礙神要指引你走向的真理之路。不安全感滋生了懷疑，懷疑帶來業力。這顯而易見。 「我們兜兜轉轉，像車輪一樣不停旋轉。」這句詩是我們社區中一位才華橫溢的同修多年前所作。
關鍵在於，當「不要擋著自己的路」出現時，或許會以不同風貌成功結果來呈現，但當你克服了內心的每一份不安全感，做出正確的決定，就不再是問題。那該是多麼令人欣慰啊！即使看似錯誤的決定，只要有信心做出正確的選擇，就能創造出一個幸福美滿的人生。
如果你願意付出謙遜的代價，所有這些不安全感都可以迎刃而解。所以，我把謙遜當成一場遊戲，彷彿它是我邁向更高層次的必要條件。我是否喜歡謙遜並不重要，重要的是我需要謙遜才能繼續前進，這比什麼都重要。我練習謙遜。關於謙遜，我想說的是，一次又一次地放棄假我很難，但一旦放棄，那種自由的體驗是如此強烈，你會不禁納悶自己之前為什麼那麼愚蠢。不過，正如我曾經聽過的那樣，「 愚蠢的人行事愚蠢」，這句話出自一部電影。
而且，他的教導還有更深層的妙處。他的這句話也正是如何運用謙遜「擺脫自我設限」的關鍵。我們需要找到替代方式。否則，沒有方向，風險太大。你最終會走向何方？
他的教誨充滿了最高目標、最高標準、最高準則的闡述。請仔細研讀，你就會明白我的意思。而這，才是你身為學生真正想要的，否則，你只會安於現狀，何必呢？至少我是這麼想的。我知道很多人都在努力，但我不會允許自己或這門正法受到任何可能使我們偏離教導的觀點影響。所以我已經把我自己挪出擋到自己路的位置。
我已用古魯上師的教導取代了「我」。這使我擺脫了自我束縛，成為莫大的恩賜。當你超越自我，融入古魯上師的身份時，生命才真正變得有意義。否則，煩惱加煩惱將永無止境！永遠要想到去對昆達里尼瑜珈作出練習；探尋教導的指引；跟隨指引；信任指引；臣服於指引；服務於指引；熱愛指引；融入指引。這便是錫克正道的核心。 「神與我，我與神合一」…
This story about Yogi Bhajan was shared years ago to the HGRD (Hacienda de Guru Ram Das) Sangat by Hari Jiwan Singh Khalsa.
“Can you please get out of your own way.” We were walking around the ranch on a rather crisp late morning in April in 1991. It was our beloved teacher’s habit and pleasure to walk and view his estate. It felt as if I were walking with a king and he was inspecting the grounds of his castle. It felt like that because that’s what he experienced. I loved living in his world.
Hearing his words of truth, I knew exactly what he meant. His statement needed no further interpretation. But, when he said it, it reverberated within me and made a big impact. I was currently involved in a business deal which required sensitive negotiations. He rarely bothered with business issues of mine. He left that up to me. He often helped on the human resource side of things but the rest was left up to me.
Negotiations in this deal was proceeding painfully. We were a long way from a deal acceptable to both sides. I didn’t realize it at the time, but I wanted to get even with this guy I was negotiating with. He had betrayed me so badly that I could never give him what he deserved during our discussions. I wanted to recapture what he had cost me. That’s not the way to negotiate. My attitude was, whatever this guy gets, he doesn’t deserve it. Vengeance was getting in the way of making a deal. I wanted revenge and that’s not how a successful negotiation is finalized.
As obvious as it should have been, I couldn’t see this impediment. I was stuck. And, as usual, I hadn’t discussed this situation with the Siri Singh Sahib. I thought it would work itself out, but it hadn’t. And now with his ‘morning walk words of wisdom’ he was showing me that he knew what was happening when I didn’t. How did he know? And, how did he know just what to say? Well, that’s why he’s the Siri Singh Sahib. He served his title with honor. That’s how he was blessed to know everything he needed to know.
It appeared to everyone else that his statement was in reference to something completely different. That didn’t matter to me. That’s how he often acted. He would use any excuse to say what he wanted. I was used to it. I was trained to look for another reference if the first one didn’t make sense. In this case, it was pretty obvious.
I didn’t need to reflect for long, I knew right away that he meant for me to drop the vengeance. See how a deal can be struck in neutrality. Of course, he was right again. How lucky we all are to have a true teacher who continually speaks words of truth. I am Infinitely grateful for it. Our job is to constantly be blessed to have the understanding to hear them!
I’m not saying that it’s easy to get out of your own way, At least it wasn’t for me. Especially when emotions and feeling are involved. It’s not easy, but it’s necessary in order to do what’s best, if that’s your goal. He taught me that if I want to do what’s best, I must get out of my own way. I must allow something greater to blow ME away. It’s an affront, a challenge, to your very core – your security! I was blessed to understand the sequence.
Anger, jealousy, fear, frustration and hate are insecurities which must be moved aside. Then there are your concepts of faith and reality and happiness….they also must be suspended. Everything you believed in is out of your hands and up to God’s judgement as to whether you can recapture a portion of your habits, or not. Otherwise, they block God’s flow of the true way.
Insecurities create doubt, and doubt creates karma. It’s very definable. ‘Round and round we go, spinning like a wheel.’ That last line was written by a creative and talented member of our sangat many years ago.
The point is, getting out of your own way may come in many shades of success, nevertheless, when you defeat each insecurity in yourself, making the right decision is no longer a problem. What a relief that is. The confidence to make the right decision even if it appears temporally wrong, creates a life of contentment.
If you’re willing to pay the price of humility, any and all of these insecurities can be managed. So, I made humility a game as if it were something I needed to move to the next level. It didn’t matter whether or not I liked it, I needed humility to move on and that was more important than anything. I practiced humility. Let me say this about humility. Giving up one’s ego over and over again is a hard thing to give up, but, when it’s given up, the experience of freedom is so overwhelming that you wonder why you were so stupid for so long. But, as I heard one time, “Stupid is as stupid does,” another reference, this time from a movie.
And, here’s the further beauty in his teaching. His statement was also the key as to how to use humility in order to ‘get out of my own way,’ There needs to be a replacement. Otherwise, without direction it’s too big a risk to take. Where will you end up?
His teachings were filled with references focused on the highest goals, the highest standards, the highest protocol. Please study them. You’ll see what I mean. And, that’s what you really want as a student, otherwise, you’ll be settling for less. Why bother? At least that’s my attitude. I know plenty of others bother, but I won’t allow myself or this dharma a view which has the potential to deflect focus away from our teachings. So I’ve moved myself out of my way.
I’ve replaced ME with the Guru’s teachings. That has make the transition out of my own way the blessing of blessings. When you step outside of you, and into the identity of the Guru, life becomes really worth living. Otherwise, hassle and hassle continue – perpetually! Practice Kundalini yoga forever; find where the teachings lead; follow that lead; trust that lead; surrender to that lead; serve that lead; love that lead; merge into that lead. This is Sikh Dharma at its core. ‘God and me, me and God are one’….
明月心滴翻譯 / 摘自StudentsofYogiBhajan
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